Moving through the days in search
The silence of a moment awakened
Into the thought and feeling evokes
The magic of these fields of color.
The lightness of joy and knowing
Concentrations of energy stop with a start
Looking around to see the empty faces
Going about their day to day.
But the frightening second as the bottom falls
And we sit in wonder at that very place in time
As we question the workings of this life,
When everything changed and we became
Aware of what we had closed our eyes to,
As we found ourselves mortal.
Something so frightening yet to see the beauty
Like a portal in the empty space before us,
How we hit it and wondered at the force,
And in a split second we became a part of the magic,
Thinking if that is how it would end
With a flash and a dropping of the world below our feet,
Steadying self to prepare for the next wave,
The next moment that would signal
The next fork in the road to take.
I write this remembering back a few days ago when for the first time in my life something scary yet exciting in its own way happened. I was walking along a corridor at work to get an antacid and suddenly felt like I had walked through an electrical field, and thinking it was a short in one of the machines or an earthquake at the very least, the feeling like the floor dropped out from below my feet and that for a split second, I was stopped cold. Come to find out when you don’t realize your blood pressure is a bit way too high and that my body was shooting it through to my brain so quickly, that’s what happened. Life telling me to take it a bit slower, to pay a bit more attention to the food I nourish my body with and the Doc telling me to now take the meds that will help. Now in a calm place where I’m not racing and the mind is not going ten thousand miles an hour and the stress that used to build, now floats merrily through my blood stream with my baby aspirin. Never ignore the signs my friends, but damn if it didn’t feel like something so cool and magical. Even in a bad moment, I can still find the beauty of the gift it teaches. I am thankful for that. Peace, K