There was a moment in life, a yesterday unlike any other and I see the numbers and do some addition, realizing that “that was then and this is now” and that’s okay, somedays it still gets so hard to wrap the mind around it all.
Things change daily and I think the biggest block we trip over, stubbing our toe almost daily is the fact that we can’t go back to “there” because we’re different now than we were then.
I remember the Scrabble games, how you drove me crazy just trying to keep my mind in shape on days when I felt it melting in a puddle of chemo chemicals and I knew you’d let me win to make me feel good, and it did feel good for awhile, but that was then and now we play for real and I never did like competition and I turn and walk away, don’t want to play no more because now I have my faculties and I choose to let it go, it is just a game of wooden tiles….if you knew how I longed to see you use them as smoking wood you would laugh out loud. Things are fine and as I dance like a fool for a smile from you we can just be, us, here and now enjoying each moment that comes along because baby, that’s life and as I sit here listening to the cicadas and you talk to those from yesterday that makes your heart soar, I know you’re happy, right here, right now.
This is the life, the path we’ve chosen and it’s good. It’s so very good and I don’t need a Scrabble game, stupid game I say with a smile as we sit together every night feeling the balmy breeze blow and we have love, and we have health, yeah, we have everything and I couldn’t ask for more, wouldn’t want to really, for this is our life….and it’s enough in its simple perfection. Double word score baby. I think I know now why I grew to hate that game so much. It was a reminder of when I wasn’t in control, when my head ached to remember and I couldn’t, of when I wasn’t sure what tomorrow would bring. I’m okay with that, but still I wonder, what to do with the Q?
Peace, Love and Patchouli 
Yeahs…that’s right!! Walk away Q, just walk away…but we’re keeping our U. 🙂
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Yeah, damn Q….not me 🙂 bye bye Q 🙂
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I feel this, when things start to slip and we can’t hold like we used to. Sometimes we want to scream, fight and rip out our insides, trying to get it back to how it was. Damn that Q, who needs it anyways?? ❤
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See, you are extremely good….You can play with him 🙂 I wasn’t allowed to use the dictionary and at the time, my brains were like scrambled eggs….I still call it the dreaded Q when I see that letter 🙂 Peace and love and hope all is well on your side of the planet 🙂
K
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Yes, that is the Question. Q is a Quirky letter. But you can always Quietly Quit the game and Quickly start a new Quest and Query. Remember, you’re the Queen of the words. 😉
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Love the clock thing….so true, never quite looked at it that way….living in a world where it’s five o’clock somewhere and wishing I were sleeping to avoid the expectation of just another round….peace and love and don’t forget, if you ever need me off comment line of WP, Zipsride@me.com is the email, I always get back promptly if I am home….which is a lot….sleep well dear Sheldon, dream of fine art waiting to be created and all the living in a life of pain that is to come…..peace and love,
Always stuck in the middle with you….good song….
K💜😊
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A broken clock still has hands
As I ………..
In all t h e absence
There is still a presence
Until we speak again
There will always be
The spirit of creativity
And I will always be
As I am The Sheldon Perspective
Prayers, blessings
Above all Peauce
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I think of you daily…cannot imagine what you go through, if nothing else, I am there in spirit beside you, as always, holding your hand through the darkness😞
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Yes my absence
Has been my circumstances and situation
Sitting to long is not good
And writing is sometimes painful also
Thank you so much for your listen ear
Prayers and blessings to you
As always Sheldon
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Oh my poor friend, yes fear is always a comfort when we know it so very well. I’m sorry you’re in so much pain and if I could take some of your burden on myself I would gladly do so. I don’t consider it complaining, speaking to someone, even a virtual someone who cares counts too just so you know. I hate heartless Doctors…Panic is even worse than fear and with what you’re going through, I can see by your absence sometimes that it pains you probably to even write. I send bouquets of healing thoughts and love to carry you over this hump. I’m always here my friend, you know that so never worry that you’re a bother. You’re anything but! Sending peace, love and hope for a better tomorrow….Kim
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The good part is I’m all better now, just purging some memories in a good way….Nope, still hate the Q….Thanks so much Mary, peace love and no games 🙂 Kim
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It’s the comfort of pain to the excise of life
There is a sense of control with pain,we know it all to well
But the uncertainty of life
Not so much
Fear and panic
Is not the same as pain
There is a difference
If you’ve been there you know
To explain is to complicated
Just like the game of scramble
You could explain it
Ah yes understanding is something totally different
God how I hate today
It’s so painful Kim
The Dr had no heart today
Today I wasn’t a patient
I wasn’t getting better fast enough
I shouldn’t be hurting like I was
I just wanted pain meds
God how I hate today
My tears have cramps
My legs hurt so bad rite now I can’t even stand to walk
I’m sorry Kim
For complaining
The Sheldon Perspective
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Thanks Laine, things are going splendidly down here in the sunshine state, walking a few miles a day, eating good and evenings in the balmy lanai poolside. Hope you are doing well and I see you’ve been busy too. Peace and love, Kim
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I’ve been off WordPress for a bit, but I know that I can always find something lovely to read here 🙂 Still, I am thinking of you and wishing you well always ❤
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This is great, Kim. I used to like the Q because it was such a high score. But having it at the end of the game is no fun. I’m glad you had that during chemo. So sorry you had to go through that!
Peace and ease,
Mary
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~Blessings my Sweet Friend~ !!!
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Always hated them…..although he is the scrabble King, the queen retired from that game…..I like real life…and writing…..it did help with the chemo as I kept losing track of everything….kept me a bit sharper till it was over😊 yes, he is a doll😊
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You are fortunate to have that other to lean upon, rely on and love. It is something I wish I had. On the other hand, Q’s stink LOL 🙂
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So true.
About John… No. I’m still working through my reader, but I’ll go there now. Thanks!
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Thanks Cynthia, I’m so glad you liked it. Trying new styles of writing, more authentic snippets of life…seems to be going good. Peace and love, Kim
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Yes, we always need someone…but we also like to “think” we don’t….but many hands make a light life😊 thanks Ken. Did you see Johns post about your Missouri?
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It’s nice to have someone to lean on, even when you don’t need someone to lean on.
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This is beautiful!
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I don’t think I ever pulled all vowels, thank goodness. Thanks Lady, I’m glad you enjoyed it. It’s a game I’m not really good at, Scrabble, that is, most days I think I have life down pretty good. I like the board game Life, hate Monopoly😊 have an amazing day my friend, Ki,
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We never know what will turn up in our lives. Ever hoping for something good and different.
It was always exciting to use every tile in the tray in a word and be able to start fresh with all new tiles ………… only to find I had drawn all a,e,i,o and us.
One can always throw in the tiles and start a new game. Not so much with life. But we make do and do our best. 🙂
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