And I cry for the loss….

“…They think of suicide as a quick route to oblivion, an escape. Far from it. It merely alters a person from one form to another. Nothing can destroy the spirit. Suicide only precipitates a darker continuation of the same conditions from which escape was sought. A condition under circumstances so much more painful.”
― Richard Matheson, What Dreams May Come

For masses
A friend yet
Not a personal friend,
A childhood icon
Who taught me that laughter was ok,
Who taught me that you can be
All you dream.
A master in disguise
What torments the mind
To make the call that the time is now,
And I cry for the loss,
But I think I was told once,
that this is how life goes.
Rhyme with no reason
Losses yet another
And I don’t know why.
But hearts ache for a family at loss
Hearts are broken
for no good that I know of,
but it is not my moment.
These are not my lines to speak
but a Solitary goodbye spoken to the wind.
Missed you will be
and anger fills my heart,
But I will survive
For that is the honest way
to say goodbye.
Curtain call
Fade to black.
No standing ovation of flowers
As you have gone
Shutting the door,
Goodbyes never spoken aloud.

Dead poets society:
Neil: [quoting Henry David Thoreau] “I went to the woods because I wanted to live deliberately. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life.”

I hate being angry with the choices people make, but it is their choice and not mine, and still it breaks the heart and I can only cry in sadness….if only….questions un Answered.
To my childhood icon, rest in peace….thank you for your gift of laughter.

Caution…now entering the vortex of death…aka another meeting

this here above is me.
This is what my brain looks like at a work meeting lately.
We are entering that period of work known yet again as LEAN. And I know they are not talking about sexy svelte bodies….let’s not go there ’cause I would not fit in that category yet ( it is not bikini season in New York yet says the snow that fell again last night).
We are talking business LEAN. kaizen, etc…..we like to do this a lot, although never following through with it after we terrorize the shop with that one persons idea on how it should be, especially when they don’t even work in the area let alone have an inkling of how things work. I was asked yet another, shall we say, STUPID question and of course being the fine example of a well read worker, told said person that we do it that way because if I climb the ladder for the banana I will get hosed or beat up. Said person just shined this big smile and tells me how she loves, I mean loooooooves that story. (Google five monkeys, a ladder, and a banana story and you will understand). We do it that way because it is the smart way. We have tweaked it and fine tuned it for years. WE know how it works best.
So we sit in this meeting for which the ones in charge apparently have already decided what they want to do. It’s their way apparently.
We sit there listening to debate for over two and a half hours of time that I am not getting any real work done, so I am now professing these meetings to be called the vortex time suck meeting. We will have them every week, for months.
Now don’t get me wrong, I like change….sometimes…..if I believe it is for the better.
Change makes me feel all warm and fuzzy” it gets confusing for a little while till you get the hang of it after years of doing it a certain way but it is good. If done right.
So we run off to the time suck meeting, everything mapped out on what our goal is and proceed to spend three hours mapping out something that has absolutely no rhyme or reason or ANYTHING to do with the goal. WTF we think, okay five out of eight think that and we leave wondering WHY? This makes no sense. And just because yesterday was so much fun, they schedule another impromptu one for today. Two days in a row. Grrrrrr.
Can any one say WASTE (something we are trying to get rid of).
Soooooo, with great glee….or as much as I can muster, I shall depart in a few to get sucked back into the vortex. Wish me luck, and if you hear someone screaming, don’t worry, it is just my poor brain crying out to the universe to please just shoot me now and be done with it, or I am getting hosed on the ladder.
Another work day almost over.

What if…..

If they told you tomorrow
You had one day left to see
What would you try to capture
One last view of?
If they told you that tomorrow
You would never write again
What would you put down
On the paper today?
If they told you that
Tomorrow you would no longer have
The memories you have now,
What would you wish to keep?
What if you knew
With the coming of day
You would never have a voice again,
Would you spend today
Singing, laughing, talking
Saying I love you?
If they told you that today was your last
Would you do something you had
Never had the courage to do before?
If they told you that come morning
One of your wishes would come true
Which would you choose?
If you knew tomorrow
You would never hear again
What is the one sound
You would long to hear
One more time
Before time ran out
And silence took over.
If you knew tomorrow you would
Never walk, run,or dance again
How would you use your limbs right now?
Live for today
Love for today
Cherish each moment
And never forget
We are just visitors
On this journey of life
Someday to returns to
Particles of the universe.
Live now friends,
Dance, sing,laugh.
It is what we were meant for.